Changes- is it time?

After this past month and all my ups and downs. I have finally hit the breaking point. I am asking God to take over everything in my life.
From my health  career  to kids and family matters 
I am done trying to control it all, I know it's all out of my  hands  and in his...

Now easy to say when tired and sad but in order to get things back to some sort of "Organized Chaos" it's time to let go...

So please pray with me and for me to be strong and patient while waiting for him to show me His way, cause we know mine is not working!!

Hugs and Luv

Getting Good

Wow, why is it that the days seem to go by so fast when you it's a great weekend to be off and getting things accomplished? I have so much to do but yet time has flown by me today like I was standing still, and we all know I don't stop very often.
Busy week back to work but all and all I feel really good. Ready to start the gym and start Zumba, wanna get my dance on.
got my tan going already.
Stitches are pretty well healed and all on the outside now just waiting for the inside to not be so sore.
I am happy to report that I am still off most of my meds and feeling extremely well. I had planned to wean a little at a time but being sick prompted me to go off both almost cold turkey.
Now I am still taking the meds for the "Lupus" but not all the pain meds, ie Cymbalta & Lyrica also have not been taking the meds for fatigue. I have been surprised at the amount of energy and drive I am feeling lately and I think the more excited I get the more energy I have.
I have to say that today has been pretty fantastic just in general, I feel great about how I am feeling and how things are going to be in the upcoming weeks. I am so ready to get things back on track- I want my old self back. And with the help of being sick, its helping me get Unsick? Maybe feels great to shed a few more pounds too. Now to keep it off..
When you look around at yourself now, what changes do you think about? What would you change if you could?

TIme to run catch later

Be Blessed

Better Days Ahead

So today started out well. I actually woke up on my own about 6:15 or so, not me. I am so  not a morning person so why I keep waking up is far beyond me. But  I like it, I want to start getting up early all the time- it's quiet!
 So I was was awake, just didn't really do much but lay there for a bit and relax. After my coffee and shower, few work calls and herding kids out of bed. I was off to work. My first day back!
It felt good, first meeting fro coffee went well then off to lunch meeting that was even better (family) then headed out in the beautiful 65° weather and hit the streets. Pictures and updates on construction at the New Killeen Subdivision It looks awesome.
  Got a bit of house work done played games with the kids, and had a few visitors. Even sold lots of GS Cookies.
All in all it was a very successful day. I just wanted to thank God that I was well enough to have had such a great day with friends and family . I am a little sore now but I am headed to bed now to sleep it off.

Church  tomorrow and then finish the dreaded clothes I am so far behind on.
Good night loves & hugs


 Kim  :)  

See my new Music player Widget!

Wednesday

Not much today, Maria was sick this am so hung around with her this am.
Then off to HS for ticket sales them deliver GS Cookies all over. Exciting we sold 2 cases and anther 3 promised already. So have to get more tomorrow.

MNS seems to help alot feel great now that my weight getting back to normal, great tan And just better emotionally. Hip getting there too.

Eyes watery from allergies so can't see and hands sore.. Catch ya tomorrow....

Hugs and luvs

Updates

Ok here we go, i will try to make it short and sweet but after a day like mine I tend to ramble and use this as my venting stage.
 I guess once again my blog need to change a bit as I will no longer be labeled "Realtor" as this is a trade mark term used by members of a Board of Realtors. WHich I am no longer a member of. I have also have decided ( but no other option) to have my Real estate license go Inactive at this time.
I will still be owkring in the smae field but specializing on only new consturction. I will be working out of the model home soley in our newest aggition in Killeen.
This is going to be a postitive move froe me as I will be closer to Ft Hood and to the kids schools if needed.
I will also have more flexability when I am having my flare -ups as I will only be showing in my own area.
I am looking at this as a postivie move and I look forward to helping people build their homes over the next year. I know that 2011 will be a major turning point for my family.

Dr appt was ok today, more blood drawn to check inflammation and Sed rates again still working up the Lupus stuff and today got a nice Steroid shot in the hip for my bursitis (ouch)

Headed to grab some food and go to small group for some much needed prayer and learning..

As I have been trying hard to drowned myself in my Bible my week seems to go down hill more, guess I am doing something right- Satan scared so he trying harder to suck me back in...

My Luvs & Hugz

Kim

Crazy days

So I know its been a little while again since I last wrote, these past few weeks just flew by.
I am still in the retail business so you can imagine what that's been like. I have a new respect for anyone in the retail business.
Right now my realestate career is pretty much been on hold.  I have to focus on making money to get from month to month. I know in a few months things will be better but all I can do is focus on here and now. I will continue to work with the same company that I am currently with and help them manage the model home for the builder and hopefully I can assist other realtors in the area with open houses and such.
And I can tell you here an now I am wiped out and could sleep for days.  The exhaustion and fatigue is indescribable at this point. The pain is increasingly worse as the more stress and the harder I work the worse it is. But I just push through cause that's what I need to do and resting when I can.
 I am trying to get more sleep and I am eating better, trying to prepare snacks and making sure I have my water with me helps out and keeps me from spending money to eat each day.
  Hubby comes home today, I am so excited yet sad, the house is not in order to what I would like for him, we are you to the chaos and clutter, where he lives alone and is used to it slightly on the OCD side. This is not me. I live out of laundry baskets most of the time. I know it would be so much easier to just put it away, I have been trying and I want to. Just to tired , maybe lazy too. So, I look to just get through another week one day at a time.
  I am excited to see what the new year will bring us, I am still sadden by the fact that my husband will NOT be coming back to Ft Hood in May like we had expected. Oh, if  you didn't know he will be going to Korea for a year this summer. Good thing is he will be home for Lacey's graduation, but will miss yet another Christmas and Anniversary. But it also kept him from deploying again which is the main reason he chose to go there. I have done this for so many years and yet this seems to get harder and not easier, maybe I am not as strong as I was or maybe I am just plain sick of being alone.  In any case what choice do I have, I am an Army wife and mother and we will make it. 

Well thats all for now, take care of You.. Lots of Love and gentle hugs my friends. God Bless

Directions

How well do you listen to directions?  Do you follow them to the "t" or do just push through trying to get as much done as you can and do it all but only part way?
That seems to be the case alot of times lately around my house. We barely have time to breath much less take out the trash & put a new bag in.
So how  do we fix that, how can we get back to the basics? God and family, then everything else. I understand we all work and and get distracted by everything especially kids or coworkers.
Last time I wrote I talked about scheduling and making sure that we performed out best during the day. that focus was  more for us with chronic illness or Brain Fog if you will so that we can keep working with out forgetting the task at hand. Or sentence for that matter
So getting back to the daily schedules, do you start you am off with coffee and breakfast, is that when you read your emails or your morning paper? I have tried to incorporate my bible study time then, maybe take 30 minutes before the kids are up running around and screaming they can't find their shoes. Then maybe on your lunch break take another 15 minutes or so and just Praise God, praise him for everything, then ask him for your needs as well as others. I do alot of worship in the car, I can sing as loud as I want with no one to laugh or judge. It makes my drive time go by alot faster and I am in such a better mood once I get to my next destination for I am consumed by the holy spirit.
There is a message out there for each one of us. A path to follow and directions are laid out each day, with guidance and we fail everyday trying to make our own path or doing it my own way.
HELLO, that's not working, wake up and look at everything around you. Is that where you are supposed to be? Just take time to listen and hear the directions that are being spoken to you. Sometimes we just have to keep going straightt forward until he say it time to make that turn.
I can keep going on and on ranting but that doesn't fix it, I have to start doing it.

Kids

Just sitting here with my youngest watching Charlie Brown, I look at her on my laptop typing away to her friends, and texting.
My son doesn't even stay in the living room long enough for me to even see him text.
As usual my older girls are not home 

After attending a funeral for a 17 year old boy my heart is still broken, as hard as it is to be a parent we have to stay focused on all the good things.

Yeah off to Scouts, gymnastics, soccer (all day)
pto meetings it's all the same. Tiring - what else gives you that amazing feeling, that's my kid!!

I say that to say this - love your kids wholey, never go to bed angry, never leave w/ out a good bye and always say I love you

God Bless