Open Doors

So one door closes and another one opens. We sit we wait, we pray......

So here I sit, asking why, what now? Where am I supposed to be. Afraid to wait to long and miss the opportunity, or keeping waiting for the "right one" to come along.

As I speak of missed opportunities I refer to not only work, but life in general, where are you supposed to be in you relationships, with people and with God? 

 As my week continues to go by I know that time is ticking, decisions must be made. However all I can do at this time is pray and wait.

My health has been good, minor flare ups but that was from over doing it, working too hard, or just plain running. Now I feel that I am getting back on track, start exercising and eating better.

Can't wait to step back on that scale and show him what I have done. Feeling pretty good in that aspect. But still need to deal with the pain. Headaches are back and kicking it up, but I will not be held back any longer from my Life!

So I leave you tonight with this question,  do you know what it is you are seeking? What are we desperately searching for each and every day? Do we already have it?

Take care of You! Good Night God Bless,

Kim

P.S. For those following, still of the Lyrica & Cymbalta- just taking the Plaquenil for immune system

Updates

Ok here we go, i will try to make it short and sweet but after a day like mine I tend to ramble and use this as my venting stage.
 I guess once again my blog need to change a bit as I will no longer be labeled "Realtor" as this is a trade mark term used by members of a Board of Realtors. WHich I am no longer a member of. I have also have decided ( but no other option) to have my Real estate license go Inactive at this time.
I will still be owkring in the smae field but specializing on only new consturction. I will be working out of the model home soley in our newest aggition in Killeen.
This is going to be a postitive move froe me as I will be closer to Ft Hood and to the kids schools if needed.
I will also have more flexability when I am having my flare -ups as I will only be showing in my own area.
I am looking at this as a postivie move and I look forward to helping people build their homes over the next year. I know that 2011 will be a major turning point for my family.

Dr appt was ok today, more blood drawn to check inflammation and Sed rates again still working up the Lupus stuff and today got a nice Steroid shot in the hip for my bursitis (ouch)

Headed to grab some food and go to small group for some much needed prayer and learning..

As I have been trying hard to drowned myself in my Bible my week seems to go down hill more, guess I am doing something right- Satan scared so he trying harder to suck me back in...

My Luvs & Hugz

Kim

Crazy days

So I know its been a little while again since I last wrote, these past few weeks just flew by.
I am still in the retail business so you can imagine what that's been like. I have a new respect for anyone in the retail business.
Right now my realestate career is pretty much been on hold.  I have to focus on making money to get from month to month. I know in a few months things will be better but all I can do is focus on here and now. I will continue to work with the same company that I am currently with and help them manage the model home for the builder and hopefully I can assist other realtors in the area with open houses and such.
And I can tell you here an now I am wiped out and could sleep for days.  The exhaustion and fatigue is indescribable at this point. The pain is increasingly worse as the more stress and the harder I work the worse it is. But I just push through cause that's what I need to do and resting when I can.
 I am trying to get more sleep and I am eating better, trying to prepare snacks and making sure I have my water with me helps out and keeps me from spending money to eat each day.
  Hubby comes home today, I am so excited yet sad, the house is not in order to what I would like for him, we are you to the chaos and clutter, where he lives alone and is used to it slightly on the OCD side. This is not me. I live out of laundry baskets most of the time. I know it would be so much easier to just put it away, I have been trying and I want to. Just to tired , maybe lazy too. So, I look to just get through another week one day at a time.
  I am excited to see what the new year will bring us, I am still sadden by the fact that my husband will NOT be coming back to Ft Hood in May like we had expected. Oh, if  you didn't know he will be going to Korea for a year this summer. Good thing is he will be home for Lacey's graduation, but will miss yet another Christmas and Anniversary. But it also kept him from deploying again which is the main reason he chose to go there. I have done this for so many years and yet this seems to get harder and not easier, maybe I am not as strong as I was or maybe I am just plain sick of being alone.  In any case what choice do I have, I am an Army wife and mother and we will make it. 

Well thats all for now, take care of You.. Lots of Love and gentle hugs my friends. God Bless

Working in Pain

Working with (in) pain... we all do it right? Whether we are working at home cleaning or doing the mommy thing driving from here to there, pto meetings and dance class- or just at work doing what we do.
How do we do it each and every day, well for the most part we don't have a choice. you learn to do what you have to. Yes some day you cant get out of bed, don't stress about it, that makes it worse. So what do you do on those days?
I finally get it now, being organized and keeping up with things instead of putting it off til the next day is one way to keep yourself in check. Because with us tomorrow may just be one of those days. I don't want you to over do it on your good days, setting your own pace.
So maybe make up a schedule for the week, this is what I have started doing, each day will have it's own thing this can be for house work or work Monday's will be my marketing days, I will respond to all weekend emails that need follow ups and web leads.  Tuesday are touring days, we hit all the open house and see what in the area. After and it s a good day to tour my own listings to check on each one.  Wednesday will be my Whatever day- also giving ME a chance to catch up on emails and previous days stuff that may have gone unattended. Thankful Thursday- I will have a business luncheon- can be with a fellow realtor, investor, loan officer, maybe board stuff.  Write 5 thank you cards and mail out. Also taking out 1 hour to meet with a friend instead of face booking or texting them. This shows them I am grateful for them.
Fun Friday- what can be better then a laid back Friday- first thing in the am make contact with all sellers, update them on housing info. Check on buyers to see if they need anything before the weekend comes. Maybe they want to look at a few homes late Saturday, get those scheduled now, not early in the am when they are not answering their phones.
This seems pretty easy to go by, until the phone rings and you are out the door to meet with a client.
Or you are so sore in the morning you can barely grab the phone to say I am not coming in.
Knowing that its OK to wait til tomorrow if your body is tell you it need rest. By keeping it all lined up one day to the next you should be fine to rest and not worry. What do you do to make it easier?
So now that I rambled on about my daily work routine, what is yours? Can you get up at 5:30 and exercise right away, or do you drag yourself out of bed by grabbing the dresser- to the wall- to the bathroom counter? Tomorrow I will attempt to talk about morning routines and how can we (I) start one..