Open Doors

So one door closes and another one opens. We sit we wait, we pray......

So here I sit, asking why, what now? Where am I supposed to be. Afraid to wait to long and miss the opportunity, or keeping waiting for the "right one" to come along.

As I speak of missed opportunities I refer to not only work, but life in general, where are you supposed to be in you relationships, with people and with God? 

 As my week continues to go by I know that time is ticking, decisions must be made. However all I can do at this time is pray and wait.

My health has been good, minor flare ups but that was from over doing it, working too hard, or just plain running. Now I feel that I am getting back on track, start exercising and eating better.

Can't wait to step back on that scale and show him what I have done. Feeling pretty good in that aspect. But still need to deal with the pain. Headaches are back and kicking it up, but I will not be held back any longer from my Life!

So I leave you tonight with this question,  do you know what it is you are seeking? What are we desperately searching for each and every day? Do we already have it?

Take care of You! Good Night God Bless,

Kim

P.S. For those following, still of the Lyrica & Cymbalta- just taking the Plaquenil for immune system

Changes- is it time?

After this past month and all my ups and downs. I have finally hit the breaking point. I am asking God to take over everything in my life.
From my health  career  to kids and family matters 
I am done trying to control it all, I know it's all out of my  hands  and in his...

Now easy to say when tired and sad but in order to get things back to some sort of "Organized Chaos" it's time to let go...

So please pray with me and for me to be strong and patient while waiting for him to show me His way, cause we know mine is not working!!

Hugs and Luv

Fun Friday

Ok so not really Fun as one would hope, but I am happy with uneventful.

   Started of in pain still in hip and the cold weather always make me super stiff and puffy. In case you didn't know Rhuemi appt yesterday same old stuff, bursitis in my hip, edge of a flare up and a little PMS, but other then that my life is peachy.
ALso I am starting my weening process off of the Cymbalta and I will be getting off my Ortho evera as well.  I will be trying to document that as I hear it is a harsh withdraw. I am scared to death so please pray it goes smooth & that I will be fine. Also started back on the Advocare: MNS, Catalyst and still taking Spark.

 Have to say I did go to bed early last night and slept pretty hard until 4 ish then tossed and turned the next 2 hours. I really hate mornings. Just too tired and painful to get out of bed.
PTO meeting went great and I was on time, spent a little time chatting at with  a great friend.
We discussed relationships and how things change, almost like some people in our lives are seasonal. They come and go like the wind. Do you have people like that in your life? How does that make you feel? And as a child of God is that how we are supposed to be like?
After that I ran some errands, we got a few tickets on post for free today, one fro a football game and then to see a comedian. It was great to have lunch with my mom and her friend then to run into my dad by sheer coincidence.
Did some birthday shopping and then head here to work. Which is where I will finish up my blog for today and read some various scripture on Discipline, honesty, respect, and love.
Probably just sit here and do my reading but really need some buyer to come in and buy this home.
 Yes, I know alot of reading here is what I have for January and February:

Karen Kingsbury Like Dandelion Dust (been trying )
Terri Blackstock Cape Refuge Book 3 of 4  (audio)
Proverbs- Daily read and discussion w/ friend
Psalms we are reading a chapter each week in Sunday School Class
Romans -Small Group read and discuss weekly

Crazy days

So I know its been a little while again since I last wrote, these past few weeks just flew by.
I am still in the retail business so you can imagine what that's been like. I have a new respect for anyone in the retail business.
Right now my realestate career is pretty much been on hold.  I have to focus on making money to get from month to month. I know in a few months things will be better but all I can do is focus on here and now. I will continue to work with the same company that I am currently with and help them manage the model home for the builder and hopefully I can assist other realtors in the area with open houses and such.
And I can tell you here an now I am wiped out and could sleep for days.  The exhaustion and fatigue is indescribable at this point. The pain is increasingly worse as the more stress and the harder I work the worse it is. But I just push through cause that's what I need to do and resting when I can.
 I am trying to get more sleep and I am eating better, trying to prepare snacks and making sure I have my water with me helps out and keeps me from spending money to eat each day.
  Hubby comes home today, I am so excited yet sad, the house is not in order to what I would like for him, we are you to the chaos and clutter, where he lives alone and is used to it slightly on the OCD side. This is not me. I live out of laundry baskets most of the time. I know it would be so much easier to just put it away, I have been trying and I want to. Just to tired , maybe lazy too. So, I look to just get through another week one day at a time.
  I am excited to see what the new year will bring us, I am still sadden by the fact that my husband will NOT be coming back to Ft Hood in May like we had expected. Oh, if  you didn't know he will be going to Korea for a year this summer. Good thing is he will be home for Lacey's graduation, but will miss yet another Christmas and Anniversary. But it also kept him from deploying again which is the main reason he chose to go there. I have done this for so many years and yet this seems to get harder and not easier, maybe I am not as strong as I was or maybe I am just plain sick of being alone.  In any case what choice do I have, I am an Army wife and mother and we will make it. 

Well thats all for now, take care of You.. Lots of Love and gentle hugs my friends. God Bless

Decisions

Well here it is, a year later, and once again I am have come to a place in my life that I feel I need to make some changes. These past few months have not been my best, I am more tire then ever and just have a serious case of the "I dont cares" and "I dont want to's" to which has caused me to be unreliable and undependable.
That saddens me, I am a hard worker, I will gove it my all each time- but I can't do it right now. It take more then you know just to get out of bed each day, to raise my arm to brush my hair (much less shower and try to wash it) the pain can be aweful.
Now that things have changed for me I need to change my way of thinking and working. I need to find a better way of doing things to keep myself from overdoing it.
After this school year I will not be active on as many committees, already dropping 2( I will not join each and every club, I have learned that things will go on even if there is an opening on the board or not ( it will function with out me) I cant give it my all, and if its not done right am I really doing anyone any good anyway?
So now that I have finally thought things out, hubby and I have discussed all of our options and this is where we are:
1) He will be going to Korea for a year, then back to Ft Hood Spring of 2012
2) We will keep the house a little longer (provided I find a steady job)
3) I must focus on my health first and work 2nd- even if I have to put my career on hold (kinda already has been anyway)
4) Getting into my Bible Study & Daily reading is a must, I am so disconnected from God right now and I need to strengthen that relationship
5) My kids still need structure, now more then ever- this is the year WE get it right.