Open Doors

So one door closes and another one opens. We sit we wait, we pray......

So here I sit, asking why, what now? Where am I supposed to be. Afraid to wait to long and miss the opportunity, or keeping waiting for the "right one" to come along.

As I speak of missed opportunities I refer to not only work, but life in general, where are you supposed to be in you relationships, with people and with God? 

 As my week continues to go by I know that time is ticking, decisions must be made. However all I can do at this time is pray and wait.

My health has been good, minor flare ups but that was from over doing it, working too hard, or just plain running. Now I feel that I am getting back on track, start exercising and eating better.

Can't wait to step back on that scale and show him what I have done. Feeling pretty good in that aspect. But still need to deal with the pain. Headaches are back and kicking it up, but I will not be held back any longer from my Life!

So I leave you tonight with this question,  do you know what it is you are seeking? What are we desperately searching for each and every day? Do we already have it?

Take care of You! Good Night God Bless,

Kim

P.S. For those following, still of the Lyrica & Cymbalta- just taking the Plaquenil for immune system

too soon

No sooner did I post my blog on Saturday but then Sunday it started again. I need some info from my Lupie friends. I can not handle this constant nausea or days with out keeping food down.
Of course I am losing weight really fast, but probably not the bets way to  go about it.
I did make it to work but taking a break when you only have a 4 hour shift kinda stinks.  I need to see if you have other suggestions, tried mint tea, sea bands, ginger ale, and Sprite. I hate to take phenegran (sp) unless it's really bad. I had a patch when I was I surgery but don't know much about it or how often you use it.
Well I am of too bed, feeling really sore today. Guess going back to work is taking it's toll on me as I have been really sore past 2 days. Missed service yesterday :( was so looking forward to hearing Calling Levi.  
Take care, hugs and luvs, and God Bless

Kimberly

Getting Good

Wow, why is it that the days seem to go by so fast when you it's a great weekend to be off and getting things accomplished? I have so much to do but yet time has flown by me today like I was standing still, and we all know I don't stop very often.
Busy week back to work but all and all I feel really good. Ready to start the gym and start Zumba, wanna get my dance on.
got my tan going already.
Stitches are pretty well healed and all on the outside now just waiting for the inside to not be so sore.
I am happy to report that I am still off most of my meds and feeling extremely well. I had planned to wean a little at a time but being sick prompted me to go off both almost cold turkey.
Now I am still taking the meds for the "Lupus" but not all the pain meds, ie Cymbalta & Lyrica also have not been taking the meds for fatigue. I have been surprised at the amount of energy and drive I am feeling lately and I think the more excited I get the more energy I have.
I have to say that today has been pretty fantastic just in general, I feel great about how I am feeling and how things are going to be in the upcoming weeks. I am so ready to get things back on track- I want my old self back. And with the help of being sick, its helping me get Unsick? Maybe feels great to shed a few more pounds too. Now to keep it off..
When you look around at yourself now, what changes do you think about? What would you change if you could?

TIme to run catch later

Be Blessed

Better Days Ahead

So today started out well. I actually woke up on my own about 6:15 or so, not me. I am so  not a morning person so why I keep waking up is far beyond me. But  I like it, I want to start getting up early all the time- it's quiet!
 So I was was awake, just didn't really do much but lay there for a bit and relax. After my coffee and shower, few work calls and herding kids out of bed. I was off to work. My first day back!
It felt good, first meeting fro coffee went well then off to lunch meeting that was even better (family) then headed out in the beautiful 65° weather and hit the streets. Pictures and updates on construction at the New Killeen Subdivision It looks awesome.
  Got a bit of house work done played games with the kids, and had a few visitors. Even sold lots of GS Cookies.
All in all it was a very successful day. I just wanted to thank God that I was well enough to have had such a great day with friends and family . I am a little sore now but I am headed to bed now to sleep it off.

Church  tomorrow and then finish the dreaded clothes I am so far behind on.
Good night loves & hugs


 Kim  :)  

See my new Music player Widget!

The New year

Well so far my new year and all of its aspirations have not taken off so well. As you can tell I have been gone for sometime here.
First my daughter got pretty sick then we went out of town to Revolve Tour - Like Women of Faith for Teen Girls  it was awesome. TO be surrounded by that much love and Chirstitan Faith, to be moved by the songs and the skits. Purley magical i thought, plus Britt Nichole is always so much fun in concert, so is Hawk Nelson.
Then to top it off we got to see hubby that night and the next day. We had a great mini family vaca, not all the kids but it was nice one one one for my son and husband and for me & Maria.
So back home back to work I go, I come home w/ a major headache and I go to bed, for a week w/ the flu. So hubby comes to take care of me. I then drive him back to Texarkana (8 hrs) we have a wonderful trip there and a quiet dinner. Nice us time. The next day I am in excruciating pain go to the ER to find out I have gallstones, and my gallbladder is enraged and need to come out.. So here I am now stuck up here 8 hours away w/ my car and hubby cant leave school to take me home to my own dr. so I get mom to come get me and bring me home and in 2 days I was in same day surgery. Here we are now a week after that and I am recovering pretty well. Just sore like I have been kicked in the chest. But all and all I am doing better. I am looking at this as a positive step to better health.
Maybe some of my symptom are from this bad organ that was living in my body. Maybe my Fibro wont be so bad now, maybe the fatigue and exhaustion will be less.  I am sure that this had allot to do with my down sliding the past few months.
Tomorrow I am thinking of heading to the gym for a bit a walking on treadmill, then maybe some slight stretching and  mild yoga. My diet had been restricted quite a bit this past week so I am trying really hard not to go back to soda and junk food. Easier said then done when home all day I know but hopefully I have the strength to stick with it.
Well that's whats been going on, so I really need to get to work and make some money! I am ready to take on this new subdivision and sell!
Got a few parties booked for my Thirty-one gifts too so that should help off set a few things and take another headache off my plate.
Take care and God Bless Hugs & Luvs ,

  Kim
PS pretty much stopped taking the Cymbalta cold turkey sorta, was to sick so waiting to see if I am good or need to still ween off of it- but only a few pills in about 3 weeks, so far so good!

Wednesday

Not much today, Maria was sick this am so hung around with her this am.
Then off to HS for ticket sales them deliver GS Cookies all over. Exciting we sold 2 cases and anther 3 promised already. So have to get more tomorrow.

MNS seems to help alot feel great now that my weight getting back to normal, great tan And just better emotionally. Hip getting there too.

Eyes watery from allergies so can't see and hands sore.. Catch ya tomorrow....

Hugs and luvs

Fun Friday

Ok so not really Fun as one would hope, but I am happy with uneventful.

   Started of in pain still in hip and the cold weather always make me super stiff and puffy. In case you didn't know Rhuemi appt yesterday same old stuff, bursitis in my hip, edge of a flare up and a little PMS, but other then that my life is peachy.
ALso I am starting my weening process off of the Cymbalta and I will be getting off my Ortho evera as well.  I will be trying to document that as I hear it is a harsh withdraw. I am scared to death so please pray it goes smooth & that I will be fine. Also started back on the Advocare: MNS, Catalyst and still taking Spark.

 Have to say I did go to bed early last night and slept pretty hard until 4 ish then tossed and turned the next 2 hours. I really hate mornings. Just too tired and painful to get out of bed.
PTO meeting went great and I was on time, spent a little time chatting at with  a great friend.
We discussed relationships and how things change, almost like some people in our lives are seasonal. They come and go like the wind. Do you have people like that in your life? How does that make you feel? And as a child of God is that how we are supposed to be like?
After that I ran some errands, we got a few tickets on post for free today, one fro a football game and then to see a comedian. It was great to have lunch with my mom and her friend then to run into my dad by sheer coincidence.
Did some birthday shopping and then head here to work. Which is where I will finish up my blog for today and read some various scripture on Discipline, honesty, respect, and love.
Probably just sit here and do my reading but really need some buyer to come in and buy this home.
 Yes, I know alot of reading here is what I have for January and February:

Karen Kingsbury Like Dandelion Dust (been trying )
Terri Blackstock Cape Refuge Book 3 of 4  (audio)
Proverbs- Daily read and discussion w/ friend
Psalms we are reading a chapter each week in Sunday School Class
Romans -Small Group read and discuss weekly

Updates

Ok here we go, i will try to make it short and sweet but after a day like mine I tend to ramble and use this as my venting stage.
 I guess once again my blog need to change a bit as I will no longer be labeled "Realtor" as this is a trade mark term used by members of a Board of Realtors. WHich I am no longer a member of. I have also have decided ( but no other option) to have my Real estate license go Inactive at this time.
I will still be owkring in the smae field but specializing on only new consturction. I will be working out of the model home soley in our newest aggition in Killeen.
This is going to be a postitive move froe me as I will be closer to Ft Hood and to the kids schools if needed.
I will also have more flexability when I am having my flare -ups as I will only be showing in my own area.
I am looking at this as a postivie move and I look forward to helping people build their homes over the next year. I know that 2011 will be a major turning point for my family.

Dr appt was ok today, more blood drawn to check inflammation and Sed rates again still working up the Lupus stuff and today got a nice Steroid shot in the hip for my bursitis (ouch)

Headed to grab some food and go to small group for some much needed prayer and learning..

As I have been trying hard to drowned myself in my Bible my week seems to go down hill more, guess I am doing something right- Satan scared so he trying harder to suck me back in...

My Luvs & Hugz

Kim

Refreshed

Wow, I can not believe it has been so long since I got on here to write. My hand have been pretty sore and so have my arms. Been working alot lately. So I never bothered to pick up the laptop at all. I was just using my phone to do a few updates here an there.
First i want to say thanks to all my friends out there, I always wonder why would I blog, who wants to read my stuff. Then as I started to feel ill I searched ay and night for information, and I soaked it all up. I felt so much better to know that I was ot Alone. There are others, I am not crazy.
So I thought if  I could reach just a few people with my random rantings, and make them feel better, then I have accomplished something.
And guess what, people ARE reading it. That's is so exciting, hope you don't notice all my typos, my brain seems to work faster then my fingers, and the Internet can handle.  And  now the batteries in the key board are going out on me. 
Well I guess I need to wrap up early then, but I wanted to tell you real quick;
Last week was a really rough week, I cried, at everything- even a Folgers commercial, and the news where that track girl crawled over the finish line for her dieing coach, anyway, I had migraine & sinus headache last Wed, slept the entire day away, next day got the kids off, and then went home and slept more, ignored phones call and all. Friday I had to work at BBW- didn't want to leave the house. I got nauseous and upset stomach bad, it was awful, tried to get up and would get dizzy and shaky.
I went anyway, my good friend was working with me and she always makes me laugh and smile.
I could have stayed home, wallowed in my self pity, my despair, but I had to look around, some of my woes are financial like everyone else lately, but I know I have to work to fix it, right?
so I worked all day Sat, Sunday I went to SS Class- felt so good, then worked long shift  and a trip to the ER (another story later)
I have been reading Proverbs each day and discussing it (via text) Great idea to have accountability, w/ out the pressure. my point is that  I woke up this am, drank my coffee, showered and dressed, actually put on make up and did my hair. Yes, I wore make up today.  And I still had spoons left the-spoon-theory
and here I am sitting at work and still going, I did take one of my Rx pills today that helps but that was later in the day.  So do you think that because I took the time to learn from God this week that I feel so much better then last week, when I thought everything and everyone hated me? I would have to say that it has everything to do with my attitude today, sure I have a wonderful party tonight for work, but last week I would not have even thought about going. Surrounding myself with people no way.

OK keyboard & mouse are really dying and my hands are cramped, gonna go get pretty for party and relax.

PS Had sweet couple come into today, praying that they are serious about building and their home sells quick.

Thanks for visiting...~Gentle Hugs~ God Bless

Decisions

Well here it is, a year later, and once again I am have come to a place in my life that I feel I need to make some changes. These past few months have not been my best, I am more tire then ever and just have a serious case of the "I dont cares" and "I dont want to's" to which has caused me to be unreliable and undependable.
That saddens me, I am a hard worker, I will gove it my all each time- but I can't do it right now. It take more then you know just to get out of bed each day, to raise my arm to brush my hair (much less shower and try to wash it) the pain can be aweful.
Now that things have changed for me I need to change my way of thinking and working. I need to find a better way of doing things to keep myself from overdoing it.
After this school year I will not be active on as many committees, already dropping 2( I will not join each and every club, I have learned that things will go on even if there is an opening on the board or not ( it will function with out me) I cant give it my all, and if its not done right am I really doing anyone any good anyway?
So now that I have finally thought things out, hubby and I have discussed all of our options and this is where we are:
1) He will be going to Korea for a year, then back to Ft Hood Spring of 2012
2) We will keep the house a little longer (provided I find a steady job)
3) I must focus on my health first and work 2nd- even if I have to put my career on hold (kinda already has been anyway)
4) Getting into my Bible Study & Daily reading is a must, I am so disconnected from God right now and I need to strengthen that relationship
5) My kids still need structure, now more then ever- this is the year WE get it right.