Open Doors

So one door closes and another one opens. We sit we wait, we pray......

So here I sit, asking why, what now? Where am I supposed to be. Afraid to wait to long and miss the opportunity, or keeping waiting for the "right one" to come along.

As I speak of missed opportunities I refer to not only work, but life in general, where are you supposed to be in you relationships, with people and with God? 

 As my week continues to go by I know that time is ticking, decisions must be made. However all I can do at this time is pray and wait.

My health has been good, minor flare ups but that was from over doing it, working too hard, or just plain running. Now I feel that I am getting back on track, start exercising and eating better.

Can't wait to step back on that scale and show him what I have done. Feeling pretty good in that aspect. But still need to deal with the pain. Headaches are back and kicking it up, but I will not be held back any longer from my Life!

So I leave you tonight with this question,  do you know what it is you are seeking? What are we desperately searching for each and every day? Do we already have it?

Take care of You! Good Night God Bless,

Kim

P.S. For those following, still of the Lyrica & Cymbalta- just taking the Plaquenil for immune system

too soon

No sooner did I post my blog on Saturday but then Sunday it started again. I need some info from my Lupie friends. I can not handle this constant nausea or days with out keeping food down.
Of course I am losing weight really fast, but probably not the bets way to  go about it.
I did make it to work but taking a break when you only have a 4 hour shift kinda stinks.  I need to see if you have other suggestions, tried mint tea, sea bands, ginger ale, and Sprite. I hate to take phenegran (sp) unless it's really bad. I had a patch when I was I surgery but don't know much about it or how often you use it.
Well I am of too bed, feeling really sore today. Guess going back to work is taking it's toll on me as I have been really sore past 2 days. Missed service yesterday :( was so looking forward to hearing Calling Levi.  
Take care, hugs and luvs, and God Bless

Kimberly

Better Days Ahead

So today started out well. I actually woke up on my own about 6:15 or so, not me. I am so  not a morning person so why I keep waking up is far beyond me. But  I like it, I want to start getting up early all the time- it's quiet!
 So I was was awake, just didn't really do much but lay there for a bit and relax. After my coffee and shower, few work calls and herding kids out of bed. I was off to work. My first day back!
It felt good, first meeting fro coffee went well then off to lunch meeting that was even better (family) then headed out in the beautiful 65° weather and hit the streets. Pictures and updates on construction at the New Killeen Subdivision It looks awesome.
  Got a bit of house work done played games with the kids, and had a few visitors. Even sold lots of GS Cookies.
All in all it was a very successful day. I just wanted to thank God that I was well enough to have had such a great day with friends and family . I am a little sore now but I am headed to bed now to sleep it off.

Church  tomorrow and then finish the dreaded clothes I am so far behind on.
Good night loves & hugs


 Kim  :)  

See my new Music player Widget!

Fun Friday

Ok so not really Fun as one would hope, but I am happy with uneventful.

   Started of in pain still in hip and the cold weather always make me super stiff and puffy. In case you didn't know Rhuemi appt yesterday same old stuff, bursitis in my hip, edge of a flare up and a little PMS, but other then that my life is peachy.
ALso I am starting my weening process off of the Cymbalta and I will be getting off my Ortho evera as well.  I will be trying to document that as I hear it is a harsh withdraw. I am scared to death so please pray it goes smooth & that I will be fine. Also started back on the Advocare: MNS, Catalyst and still taking Spark.

 Have to say I did go to bed early last night and slept pretty hard until 4 ish then tossed and turned the next 2 hours. I really hate mornings. Just too tired and painful to get out of bed.
PTO meeting went great and I was on time, spent a little time chatting at with  a great friend.
We discussed relationships and how things change, almost like some people in our lives are seasonal. They come and go like the wind. Do you have people like that in your life? How does that make you feel? And as a child of God is that how we are supposed to be like?
After that I ran some errands, we got a few tickets on post for free today, one fro a football game and then to see a comedian. It was great to have lunch with my mom and her friend then to run into my dad by sheer coincidence.
Did some birthday shopping and then head here to work. Which is where I will finish up my blog for today and read some various scripture on Discipline, honesty, respect, and love.
Probably just sit here and do my reading but really need some buyer to come in and buy this home.
 Yes, I know alot of reading here is what I have for January and February:

Karen Kingsbury Like Dandelion Dust (been trying )
Terri Blackstock Cape Refuge Book 3 of 4  (audio)
Proverbs- Daily read and discussion w/ friend
Psalms we are reading a chapter each week in Sunday School Class
Romans -Small Group read and discuss weekly

Updates

Ok here we go, i will try to make it short and sweet but after a day like mine I tend to ramble and use this as my venting stage.
 I guess once again my blog need to change a bit as I will no longer be labeled "Realtor" as this is a trade mark term used by members of a Board of Realtors. WHich I am no longer a member of. I have also have decided ( but no other option) to have my Real estate license go Inactive at this time.
I will still be owkring in the smae field but specializing on only new consturction. I will be working out of the model home soley in our newest aggition in Killeen.
This is going to be a postitive move froe me as I will be closer to Ft Hood and to the kids schools if needed.
I will also have more flexability when I am having my flare -ups as I will only be showing in my own area.
I am looking at this as a postivie move and I look forward to helping people build their homes over the next year. I know that 2011 will be a major turning point for my family.

Dr appt was ok today, more blood drawn to check inflammation and Sed rates again still working up the Lupus stuff and today got a nice Steroid shot in the hip for my bursitis (ouch)

Headed to grab some food and go to small group for some much needed prayer and learning..

As I have been trying hard to drowned myself in my Bible my week seems to go down hill more, guess I am doing something right- Satan scared so he trying harder to suck me back in...

My Luvs & Hugz

Kim

Crazy days

So I know its been a little while again since I last wrote, these past few weeks just flew by.
I am still in the retail business so you can imagine what that's been like. I have a new respect for anyone in the retail business.
Right now my realestate career is pretty much been on hold.  I have to focus on making money to get from month to month. I know in a few months things will be better but all I can do is focus on here and now. I will continue to work with the same company that I am currently with and help them manage the model home for the builder and hopefully I can assist other realtors in the area with open houses and such.
And I can tell you here an now I am wiped out and could sleep for days.  The exhaustion and fatigue is indescribable at this point. The pain is increasingly worse as the more stress and the harder I work the worse it is. But I just push through cause that's what I need to do and resting when I can.
 I am trying to get more sleep and I am eating better, trying to prepare snacks and making sure I have my water with me helps out and keeps me from spending money to eat each day.
  Hubby comes home today, I am so excited yet sad, the house is not in order to what I would like for him, we are you to the chaos and clutter, where he lives alone and is used to it slightly on the OCD side. This is not me. I live out of laundry baskets most of the time. I know it would be so much easier to just put it away, I have been trying and I want to. Just to tired , maybe lazy too. So, I look to just get through another week one day at a time.
  I am excited to see what the new year will bring us, I am still sadden by the fact that my husband will NOT be coming back to Ft Hood in May like we had expected. Oh, if  you didn't know he will be going to Korea for a year this summer. Good thing is he will be home for Lacey's graduation, but will miss yet another Christmas and Anniversary. But it also kept him from deploying again which is the main reason he chose to go there. I have done this for so many years and yet this seems to get harder and not easier, maybe I am not as strong as I was or maybe I am just plain sick of being alone.  In any case what choice do I have, I am an Army wife and mother and we will make it. 

Well thats all for now, take care of You.. Lots of Love and gentle hugs my friends. God Bless

Decisions

Well here it is, a year later, and once again I am have come to a place in my life that I feel I need to make some changes. These past few months have not been my best, I am more tire then ever and just have a serious case of the "I dont cares" and "I dont want to's" to which has caused me to be unreliable and undependable.
That saddens me, I am a hard worker, I will gove it my all each time- but I can't do it right now. It take more then you know just to get out of bed each day, to raise my arm to brush my hair (much less shower and try to wash it) the pain can be aweful.
Now that things have changed for me I need to change my way of thinking and working. I need to find a better way of doing things to keep myself from overdoing it.
After this school year I will not be active on as many committees, already dropping 2( I will not join each and every club, I have learned that things will go on even if there is an opening on the board or not ( it will function with out me) I cant give it my all, and if its not done right am I really doing anyone any good anyway?
So now that I have finally thought things out, hubby and I have discussed all of our options and this is where we are:
1) He will be going to Korea for a year, then back to Ft Hood Spring of 2012
2) We will keep the house a little longer (provided I find a steady job)
3) I must focus on my health first and work 2nd- even if I have to put my career on hold (kinda already has been anyway)
4) Getting into my Bible Study & Daily reading is a must, I am so disconnected from God right now and I need to strengthen that relationship
5) My kids still need structure, now more then ever- this is the year WE get it right.

Directions

How well do you listen to directions?  Do you follow them to the "t" or do just push through trying to get as much done as you can and do it all but only part way?
That seems to be the case alot of times lately around my house. We barely have time to breath much less take out the trash & put a new bag in.
So how  do we fix that, how can we get back to the basics? God and family, then everything else. I understand we all work and and get distracted by everything especially kids or coworkers.
Last time I wrote I talked about scheduling and making sure that we performed out best during the day. that focus was  more for us with chronic illness or Brain Fog if you will so that we can keep working with out forgetting the task at hand. Or sentence for that matter
So getting back to the daily schedules, do you start you am off with coffee and breakfast, is that when you read your emails or your morning paper? I have tried to incorporate my bible study time then, maybe take 30 minutes before the kids are up running around and screaming they can't find their shoes. Then maybe on your lunch break take another 15 minutes or so and just Praise God, praise him for everything, then ask him for your needs as well as others. I do alot of worship in the car, I can sing as loud as I want with no one to laugh or judge. It makes my drive time go by alot faster and I am in such a better mood once I get to my next destination for I am consumed by the holy spirit.
There is a message out there for each one of us. A path to follow and directions are laid out each day, with guidance and we fail everyday trying to make our own path or doing it my own way.
HELLO, that's not working, wake up and look at everything around you. Is that where you are supposed to be? Just take time to listen and hear the directions that are being spoken to you. Sometimes we just have to keep going straightt forward until he say it time to make that turn.
I can keep going on and on ranting but that doesn't fix it, I have to start doing it.

Working in Pain

Working with (in) pain... we all do it right? Whether we are working at home cleaning or doing the mommy thing driving from here to there, pto meetings and dance class- or just at work doing what we do.
How do we do it each and every day, well for the most part we don't have a choice. you learn to do what you have to. Yes some day you cant get out of bed, don't stress about it, that makes it worse. So what do you do on those days?
I finally get it now, being organized and keeping up with things instead of putting it off til the next day is one way to keep yourself in check. Because with us tomorrow may just be one of those days. I don't want you to over do it on your good days, setting your own pace.
So maybe make up a schedule for the week, this is what I have started doing, each day will have it's own thing this can be for house work or work Monday's will be my marketing days, I will respond to all weekend emails that need follow ups and web leads.  Tuesday are touring days, we hit all the open house and see what in the area. After and it s a good day to tour my own listings to check on each one.  Wednesday will be my Whatever day- also giving ME a chance to catch up on emails and previous days stuff that may have gone unattended. Thankful Thursday- I will have a business luncheon- can be with a fellow realtor, investor, loan officer, maybe board stuff.  Write 5 thank you cards and mail out. Also taking out 1 hour to meet with a friend instead of face booking or texting them. This shows them I am grateful for them.
Fun Friday- what can be better then a laid back Friday- first thing in the am make contact with all sellers, update them on housing info. Check on buyers to see if they need anything before the weekend comes. Maybe they want to look at a few homes late Saturday, get those scheduled now, not early in the am when they are not answering their phones.
This seems pretty easy to go by, until the phone rings and you are out the door to meet with a client.
Or you are so sore in the morning you can barely grab the phone to say I am not coming in.
Knowing that its OK to wait til tomorrow if your body is tell you it need rest. By keeping it all lined up one day to the next you should be fine to rest and not worry. What do you do to make it easier?
So now that I rambled on about my daily work routine, what is yours? Can you get up at 5:30 and exercise right away, or do you drag yourself out of bed by grabbing the dresser- to the wall- to the bathroom counter? Tomorrow I will attempt to talk about morning routines and how can we (I) start one..